I will try and keep this short and sweet...though as most of you know "brevity" is not my strong suit.
The past two years have been nothing short of a "Roller Coaster" ride for Erin and I. The loss of my beloved Mother in June of 2010 left me hollow and miserable. This... coupled with several other issues... led Erin and I into deep marital disharmony. I must admit that I came close to making what would have been the most catastrophic decision of my life. Through a lot of love...open communication...and of course...THERAPY...we came through the lighted end of what seemed like a permanently dark tunnel.
Then came the miracle of all miracles...Erin's pregnancy. My Mother had died...our marriage had been rocky and now after a harrowing fertility experience that yielded nothing...life was handing us a tiny surprise!! 10 months later...I discovered what love TRULY was and nothing would ever be the same.
As 2012 looms a few days away...I find myself standing at what could be another life-changing year. Career changes for Erin and I stand as distinct possibilities in the coming months...Ella Giles is growing into more of a "little girl" everyday...I quit smoking...and in February...I will undergo Gastric Bypass surgery. I will admit that I am nervous and with each day my apprehension grows. That being said...the idea that 2012 could allow me to gaze into a mirror and like the face that is staring back at me...call me superficial...but it's worth any and all risk. I'm tired of being the funny, "fat" guy...just ready to be the "funny guy." No more preimptive jokes at my own expense due to my insecurity and social fears...no more dreading the family pictures at Christmas, Easter, birthdays, etc. Most importantly...no more worrying that my beautiful wife and perfect daughter will have to spend one second worrying that Daddy could die young because he just couldn't say "I'm full"!!
My weight does not define me...nor will the loss of said weight. However...I'm ready to show the world...who James Burden really is!! I can feel my confidence building everyday as I prepare for what is to come. I know that 2012 will be the greatest year yet and I hope and pray that all of my family and friends will experience the same re-birth that I know in my heart and soul is coming. I will keep you all updated on my progress...I know that this will be a struggle for nothing of value comes easy!!
May God bless each and every one of you in the coming year. I ask for your thoughts and prayers for Ella Giles, Erin and I as we turn yet another corner in this Amazing Journey called life . God bless and I'll see you all next year (hopefully in some smaller pants!!)
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